If you and I had coffee...
I'd tell you that I'm feeling under the weather. This cold is kicking my butt. I’m convinced it’s the flu, actually. I’ve been feeling so fatigued. I'm taking all the vitamin C and resting as much as I can, so hopefully it will go away soon.
I'd also tell you that my anxiety has been out of control these past few months. And that I have been waiting months and months for an appointment to see someone about it, but that's a rant for another day. I'm physically and mentally tired. And the mental health care system in this country blows.
I'd tell you that I'm really excited for all things fall. Give me all the pumpkin, all the apple, all the sweater weather, football, all of it. I can't wait! Plus, a bunch of my shows come back on, so that's a bonus.
I'd tell you that I think about writing every day, but I don't actually write every day. I'm trying to change that. I recently found this great website/project called Eight Hundred Words and I've committed to writing at least 800 words a week with my accountability buddy, Lecy. Just knowing that I have that deadline each week has me excited to write again. But even more than that, it has renewed my desire to journal every day. I have so much shit swirling around in my brain.
I'd tell you that I really want to go on vacation. Somewhere near the water so I can leave the windows open and listen to the sounds of the ocean. I haven't been on a real vacation for like 4 or 5 years now. Maybe in 2020 I can make it happen.
I'd tell you that I want to start a blog for local women in my area. I've been thinking about it for a while now. It would feature interviews, small biz spotlights, reviews of local attractions, stories about what people are struggling with in our area, etc. I think it could be a fun project. But the thought of all of the moving pieces that go into it makes me itchy. I need to come up with an outline and break it down into small chunks. I can do this.
I'd tell you that I've been cutting back on my social media habits tremendously. It feels nice to plug in my phone and leave it and go read a book or spend time with my family without constantly reaching for it. Try it sometime and see how it feels.
I'd tell you that I'm realizing friendship looks different in my mid-30s. The circle of people I trust gets smaller and smaller. There are very few people that you can call a TRUE friend. One who doesn't talk about you behind your back, but actually comes to you when they have an issue. One who knows that sometimes people go through stuff and you might not talk to each other every day. Keep your friends, your real friends, close. Nurture them. Be there when you can, the best way you know how. That's all anybody can do. And remember that you never know what someone else is going through, so maybe offer empathy before judgment.
I'd tell you that I love the show The 100. Don't judge me. Yes, it's a sci-fi teen show on the CW. I don't care. I love it. Outer space, end of the world, nuclear apocalypse, artificial intelligence, teen romance, it has it all. They just announced that the next season will be the last. I'm so sad.
I'd tell you that I don't watch the news anymore. Ever. I can't do it. I'm sure every generation probably thinks this, but wow, it just seems like everything is fucked up all the time and there's no solution to any of it.
I'd tell you that not everything is doom and gloom on my end. Ha. I've been spending lots of time with my family and I love it. The boys are growing into these unique little personalities and I love talking to them. Hubs and I have been watching shows and eating good food and just spending quality time together. Being home with my loves is the best.
I'd tell you that I've been contemplating doing a podcast of some kind. Something uplifting and encouraging. We need more of that in this world. The last time I tried to do a podcast, it was on a topic that was very important to me, but also very draining. I think I tried to do too much and spend too much money to make everything perfect. I'm tired of perfect. I just want to do it. So, we'll see. It's not like I have anything else on my plate, right? 🙂 Anyway, I feel like I need a cohost for this endeavor. Someone to bounce ideas around with, to discuss different viewpoints. I don't know yet, still thinking.
Anyway, that's about it for me. Now it's YOUR turn. What would you tell me if we had coffee together? Comment below.
**I'm linking up with Lecy from A Simpler Grace for the If You and I Had Coffee link up. It happens on the 2nd Tuesday of each month.**